Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Vacation and such

So, I guess it's a good thing I don't get paid for blogging! I would never make any money since I never keep up with it!  LOL

I just wanted to post a little something though about vacation.  We are on our way back home from Wyoming.  We were able to leave last Tuesday and travel out to Wyoming with Paul's parents.  We went to visit his Grandma Collea and Carl and his aunts and uncles.  It was great meeting all of his aunts and uncles (I had only met 1 before).  Since we had to take 2 vehicles we had planned to split the kids up between both vehicles...2 in each car.  We then decided we were both taking our smaller vehicles because it would be better on fuel.  We are not all the way back home yet, but the car ride out and back (so far) has been pretty good and uneventful (other than seeing a burnt out semi today). The drive has reminded me so much of New Mexico and our drives back and forth.  The mountains are beautiful and I didn't realize how much I missed seeing them.  We also saw a lot of antelope while in WY. Even right out front of Paul's grandma's house where we stayed.  Oh and we stopped to see Mount Rushmore and Wall Drug on the way out.

We did so much while we were there.....went to museums, they kids and the guys climbed Antelope hill (at least that's what they call it), went to the freezing cold lake, went to Independence Rock.......

We also spent time at Uncle Bob's and Aunt Theresa's house and at Uncle Dale and Aunt Susan's house.  The kids enjoyed their time at both houses.  At Uncle Bob's they got to play in a kiddie pool that was filled partially with the hot tub water and then water from the hose.  They really enjoyed it when Uncle Bob poured the hot tub water on their heads.  Then of course they loved the ice cream cones! Another night they got to go to the playground that was nearby.  Uncle Bob and Paul took care of all 4 of them.  They had fun at Uncle Dale's house where they got to watch him feed the horses and cows and help pick veggies from the garden.  Michael enjoyed playing with one of the cats too...but don't tell daddy.  :-) Then they had fun playing the kazoos that Aunt Theresa brought....the whole family was playing them.....well except Carl, who was sleeping, and me.  :-)  I think Aunt Susan left the room at that time too.

We have some great memories now of WY!

A couple lessons I learned along the way....probably more, but it's late and I'm tired.....First, I learned from a wiser, older lady that when you wear skirts you use powder to keep your thighs from chaffing! And second, that when you are headed home and you are all tired and you are hungry....it is not the time to get mad at your spouse, especially over something as stupid as you just didn't understand what they were explaining. Maybe it was because I wasn't really listening closely or maybe it was because of the noise from the back seat, but whatever it was it wasn't worth spending the rest of the afternoon, evening and night being mad and not knowing how and when to talk to each other.  I think we have both been trying to make it "right", but then it just gets worse.  (sigh) Well, here's to getting off of the computer now to eat some humble pie, wash my feet and go to bed.  We have a long day in the car tomorrow too.

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Failure......

So, tonight was our LIFT (Ladies In Fellowship Together) meeting.  I was giving a devotion on failure.  We are doing a study of Super Woman vs. Abiding Woman.  The original idea came from this site.....http://abidingmom.blogspot.com/p/abding-mom-vs-super-mom.html. Since there are 12 topics I have been doing a devotion on one a month.  Below I am going to copy and paste what I typed up today.....

As I'm sitting here trying to finish up my study of failure I start looking at the pictures scrolling on the frame on my husband's desk. I see a picture of Michael come up that was taken in the yard at our first house in New Mexico. I started thinking back to that time and thinking that life seemed so easy at that time. I don't know now if what I am remembering is completely accurate....probably not. But, what I remember is we were relaxed, fun and enjoying life. It seemed that we spent a lot of time playing and enjoying each other. I picture the house and don't remember there being toys, clothes and other stuff just all lying around the house. I don't remember it looking dirty and seeing spider webs everywhere I look. I do have to say I remember the dust, but that didn't matter if I had just dusted 15 minutes earlier!

Here I sit trying to write out a devotion on failure and the biggest failure I have felt and continue to feel is that I have failed at being a good wife, mom and homemaker. Now I know most of you will say “You are a good wife and mom and you do good taking care of your home....remember you do have 4 little ones all 6 years and under”. And while I thank you for cutting me some slack, it doesn't change the fact that I feel like a failure in this area. I have never been one to like to clean, but it doesn't mean I can't do it or that I don't like a clean house. Every time I walk into the kitchen barefooted I get so frustrated. The floor is always dirty and it seems I don't have time to clean it properly.

How is it that just adding a couple more kids has made me feel like such a failure? Well, to be honest, we didn't just add a couple more kids. With more kids come more toys and clothes and more messes. It means more people wanting to sit on my lap and read books, but my lap hasn't gotten any bigger....well, maybe the backside. It means more people wanting one on one attention and my time, but there have been no more hours added into a day. Also, we have always been involved in the church we were in. We have always gone to every service (unless sickness is upon us), we have always been involved in music and helping in kids programs, the nursery and in our Sunday school class and other areas. This has not all changed, but in being the Pastor and pastor's wife does bring on a lot more responsibilities (whether from our own expectations or others). It does bring on more concerns. Now don't get me wrong.....I LOVE BEING A PASTOR'S WIFE! But, being a pastor's wife and a mom of 4 little ones and just a wife in general, does get a little overwhelming sometimes. And I guess to be fair...it is our first church so we are still learning. Maybe one day I will learn to let others do things or figure out how to get others to do things that they don't think they can.

People tell me I'm doing too much. We know we are sometimes doing too much. But, it is hard trying to decide what things we don't do because it is too much for us or that someone else can do. We sometimes feel that if we keep doing it then no one else will because it's already being taken care of, but I guess sometimes I am too afraid to not do something because it may not get done and then someone may miss it, but not be able to do it themselves.

So, back to the wife, mom, homemaker stuff.....I guess what I'm trying to say is this is where I feel I continue to fail. I know my kids, like all other kids, have their moments and act out, but for the most part I think they are pretty good kids. I know one day they will all be grown and my house will be quiet and I will miss the noise. I know that I will one day look back and wonder where all the time has gone. I know one day I will have a clean house with no toys lying around. I know that one day my laundry will all be washed, folded and put away in a timely manner. I know that one day my meals will be just for 2 again. But, until that day I am going to remember that even during this time I can take pleasure in the challenges that I encounter each day. I have HOPE in MY Lord. I may be weak, but HE is my strength! He will lift me up and help me through these times. He will give me the strength to clean up another glass of spilled milk, wipe another snotty nose, pick up the clothes & toys that are not mine and He will give me the strength to do it with a smile on my face and with His joy in my heart. He will also help me remember that just because the kids have smiles in the pictures and the house may look clean at the time.....doesn't mean it was always that way!

.....Just an added note....I was looking at a friend's pictures today on Facebook of her kids and husband.  They were trying to get a picture on Father's Day of the dad and 6 kids.  There were 5 pictures posted and there was not 1 picture of them all with smiles or all looking at the camera!  I laughed and thought "I'm sure that's their life on a daily basis".  Then I stopped and realized just a couple weeks ago I was frustrated (and feeling like a failure) that my sister took 300 pictures and we couldn't get a good one of the kids with my grandma or a really good family picture!!  I realized though that I will look at these pictures and be able to remember that "that was life".  :-)

So, yes, I feel like a failure sometimes and yes, I do fail at things sometimes. But, I have to remember that I am weak so that God's strength can be seen.  It's only by His strength that I can make it through ANY day! I can choose to learn a lesson from my failures. 

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Time away!

This last Friday and Saturday was the WFBC Ladies Retreat at Green Lake Conference Center.  I had 11 ladies from the church (a couple that were friends of ladies at the church) go with me!!  It was an exciting time!  Then Monday and Tuesday Paul and I got some time away.  We had Paul's mom come to stay with the kids.  Levi is not completely done nursing, but enough that we knew Carole would be able to handle him even over night.  :-)  Wayne came on Monday too so they could take the kids to the Jelly Belly Factory....I almost skipped out on time alone just so I could go too!  :-)  Paul and I were staying in a bed & breakfast near Williams Bay and Lake Geneva.  We couldn't check in until 4 pm so we ended up going "shopping" in Lake Geneva.  I put that in quotes, because it is so expensive that all we did was look!  There were places that had cute dresses, but they were over $200 and $300!!! Then we ate lunch downtown Lake Geneva.  After that we went to Target! LOL  I know what a date!  We were just trying to waste time.  We did get Starbucks while we were there.  :-)  Then it was time we could go to the bed & breakfast.  It was beautiful and probably even more in the spring or fall.....we had a view of the lake and a fireplace.  On Tuesday we went to McHenry, IL so we could go to Olive Garden.  We ended up going shopping again, but this time we were able to buy things since we went to Dick's Sporting Goods, $5 Below, TJ Max, and Hobby Lobby!  Then we figured out there was a Steak 'n' Shake right there so we got milkshakes on the way home!  It's only 30 minutes away...now that I know there is a Hobby Lobby, JoAnn Fabric, Michael's AND Steak 'n' Shake all right near each other I will probably have to make another trip down there.  :-)  We came back home to enjoy pizza with Carole and the kids before Paul went to his Bible study.  It was a nice time away, but we decided we need to be gone for 2 nights next time since it takes so long to relax and then we had to find things to do (which meant spend money) since we didn't have much time at the bed & breakfast.

I do have to wonder though....why it is that while we are at the bed & breakfast and I COULD sleep in because there are no little ones crawling in bed with me or fighting...that I can't....then when we are home I just want to stay in bed!  :-)

I am so thankful to have a mother-in-law that is not afraid to come stay overnight with all 4 kids.....and she got my laundry all done too!!

Now to get my behind in gear.....my parents are coming up tomorrow night and my sister & Danny are coming Saturday!

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Socks

Ok, so pretty sad that the last time I posted anything was after Michael's first week of school.  So much has been going on and I guess I'm just not dedicated enough to blogging.  Well, I had a funny story today and thought it was too long just to post on Facebook so I figured I would post it here and then link it.

So, it really starts out that the girls got "character" socks for Christmas.  You know, the ones with princesses and tinker bell and such.  Well, a couple weeks ago a friend of mine gave me 2 pairs of Dr. Seuss and 3 pairs of Care Bears socks because I always comment on hers.  :-)  I said this was great because now maybe I would wear my own socks instead of Michael's (our white socks look the same since they are footie type....someone wasn't thinking when she bought new socks).  So, anyway, this morning I get dressed and put on my tennis shoes since my feet were hurting.  A little bit later Grace looks at my feet and says "Mommy, you have on my princess socks."  To which I told her, "No, I don't.  I have on the socks Julie gave me."  She still insisted I had her socks on (even though she could only see the tops) and I insisted I didn't.  She even told me to take my shoes off, which I told her I wasn't doing just so she could see my socks.  So, then at nap time I was able to get a shower.  You guessed it.....as I took my shoes off and looked down....sure enough I had on Tinker Bell socks!!  LOL  So, now I guess when Grace gets up I will have to apologize to her and let her know that even though I think I am always right...doesn't mean I am!  :-)